Sometimes when I come back to my body and breath, I feel so sad.
I whisper, “I’ve missed you darling. I’m so sorry to ignore you. Thank you so much for still being here, my lover. I’ll never abandon you again.”
And we embrace and it’s beautiful and she holds and heals me like no other.
And then I break my promise. Every. Single. Time. It’s heart breaking. And yet she forgives me.